To publish or not to publish. To walk away or to come back. To blog or not to blog. To share or not to share. To Facebook or not to Facebook. To work or not to work. To take time off or not to take time off. To jump or not to jump. To add noise or to be silent. So many decisions have been weighing on my mind.
We recently went to Topsail NC for a family vacation. It was our third year there, and this time, it felt like home. I knew every inch of the beach. I visited my favorite local shops. I grabbed coffee every morning and ran into the same people. I spent huge chunks of time alone. Alone with my thoughts. Alone with God. Alone with my rosary. Alone with the waves. I realized that this is my sacred space. This is where I hear God the clearest. This is where I could have all of my questions answered. And they were.
My life is good. It is all I could have hoped for and so much more. It is sheer joy. It is happiness. It is kind. It is quiet. It is simple. It has been work. It has been a struggle. It has been fear at every turn. It has been anger. It has been deep sadness. It has been elation and it is only continuing to amaze me.
I have friends. Friends that I can physically see and touch. Friends that can drive to my house for coffee and a convo at a moments notice. Friends who love my daughter. Friends who teach me. Friends that I want to invest in.
My life has changed so much in the last 2.5 years. The moment the doctor handed me my daughter, my life flipped upside down for the better. I make time for silence. I make time for God. I make time for friends. I make time for stillness. I make time for family. I make time for church. I make time for me. The simple quiet life is calling. No work. No blogging. No Facebook. No internet...well, not nearly as much.
I deactivated my Facebook account. Deleted my Twitter account. I am not accepting new design clients. I am quietly tip toeing off the internet for a bit. I am going to laugh with friends. I am going to drink red wine in our new backyard oasis. I am going to host dinner parties. I am going to have playdates with kiddos and sexy dates with my man. I am going to work hard to put my family first.
I started this blog in 2008. The world has changed. The internet has changed. I have changed. For now, I am waving goodbye. Thanks for the amazing couple of years. You all have taught me and inspired me and helped me become the woman I am. For that, I am forever grateful to you all.
Cheers and Love,
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